Daniel has been real sick over the past week. He went to the doctor twice, and the hospital twice. Today he was admitted. He's diagnosed with bacterial meningitus. I know he's gonna be okay now, but I can't help think about what life would be like without him.

I'd probably get his stuff. I'd get my own car. I'd probably get a cat because my parents would want to cheer me up. I wouldn't have to worry about him, or what he thinks of me. I wouldn't have to live up to him so much. He wouldn't have to put up with my idiocies.

I'd be alone. I've been with him my whole life. It's hard too imagine him not there. I've always been able to talk to him about most stuff. I had every class with him up until seventh grade. I'd miss him terribly.

I don't want any calling me, or IMing me, telling me that he's gonna be okay. I know he is. I just needed to vent.