Do they enjoy hurting people that much? Or are they just that insecure? But what's so threatening about me? The only thing I can think of is that two of these people are insecure about their sexuality, but that's it. Maybe that's enough.
It's not just me. This group of people is rude to everyone. Even eachother. I can see the power struggles, favoritism, and the fawning over their leader. It bothers me so much. And the allies I thought I had aren't really allies. They're either in between or on the other side. I'm being over dramatic, but I cried near the end of rehearsal today. One girl verbally attacked me, and it was so sudden and rude. I never even talk to her, but she's a lackey. Plus the other three were just rude and immature and unfocused. I know it's silly to want everyone to be on my side[like there's sides anyway], but I can't help but feel all alone. The one person who is stronger then me in this is an alternate, and I wish so dearly that she was back there with us. I love her, and she helps me so much.
I'm considering quitting. If we advance, then I'll think about it, but if we don't advance, then things will probably get better. We'll see what happens tomorrow
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